2 days into mandatory not far off now and I am a) excited b) scared stiff. Proud of what I've achieved being a mature student and know it's going to be hard but tbh looking forward to it.
It's natural to feel apprehensive when away from loved ones, is there a university nearer to home where you can transfer that do the same or similar course. Being a student doesn't necessarily mean being away from home, some it suits some it doesn't. Don't be afraid to approach student life for advice. Good luck in whatever you choose.
I was involved in a cardiac arrest for the first time, it was quite harrowing but the nursing staff were excellent with me and before I knew it I was part of the team. There was never any pressure to take part in trying to save this young persons life, I was focused fully and felt useful and not in the way in fact I was asked to take part in various tasks including chest compressions. Only when I was on my way home did it kick in what I had taken part in, I do suggest any student to talk to someone afterwards.